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"Ah."
Huaiyin shuffled forward two steps on her knees, getting closer to Doutang. Doutang could see her hands on her lap, nervously clutching her pants, her knuckles pale.
"Brother, have you ever treated me like a little sister?" Huaiyin gripped her pants tightly and said these words in fits and starts.
Dou Tang took a deep breath and remained silent for a long time.
The silence froze the entire room, so intense that even the wind outside the window was unbearable for the two of them. All they could hear was Huaiyin's sobs and Doutang's unique heartbeat.
Thump, thump.
"……Um."
This answer did not seem to satisfy Huaiyin. She simply clenched her hands tighter and then realized that this topic could not break down the barrier between the two of them, so she decided to continue.
“I’m frustrated. I feel like I can’t help you at all… Even though I’m also a participant in the Crown game, I can’t help you at all.”
“I am still dissatisfied. I am dissatisfied with you. I shouldn’t have asked for more. You saved me. You became my new family. You always granted my requests. You were so kind to me…”
Her voice choked with emotion, making it difficult to speak. Her beautiful, soft voice became hoarse and sorrowful, no longer gentle—no one can maintain their composure in extreme grief.
She looked up at the ceiling. What happened last night had truly frightened her. It was a battle that was not of ordinary demons and monsters, and it was a night that made her feel as if reality had been torn in two.
On one side, she would play games in the sunshine, or walk down the street with Chinatsu Kume by her side, carrying shopping bags and smiling.
On the other side, Dou Tang, like a ferocious beast that had been starving for a long time in a gladiatorial arena, wreaked havoc in the rainy night, leading the vengeful spirits he had killed to rampage and tear everything in his way to pieces. Then he roared at the moon behind the dark clouds, his rage still not subsided.
It's incredibly incongruous and pathetic for two people like this to live together, clinging to each other.
Dou Tang clumsily gave her all his love, but Huai Yin didn't want it. She wanted Dou Tang's true tenderness, even if it was just to hear him stammer out a single... single heartwarming word.
Huaiyin threw all her warmth and dependence into his arms, but Doutang would still choose to abandon her and rush into the rain without looking back, his eyes only on those evil spirits.
"The love you have for me... perhaps it's all of you. But I want to give you all of that love, all of it..."
Dou Tang suddenly reached out and grasped her hands, which were resting on her lap. She slowly relaxed, feeling the throbbing pain in her knuckles from the excessive force.
Dou Tang held those hands with utmost tenderness, not daring to look up, but her hands were trembling.
"If I gave you all that love, could you say one word from me, one word that acknowledges the feelings between us? Can we really be family? Can we really be siblings?"
"I don't want to, I don't want to have a relationship with you that involves supporting or caring for someone in need, even if..."
She gritted her teeth, tears streaming down her face, and looked down at Dou Tang, who was bowing low.
"Even if it's me, as a young girl, making even the smallest unreasonable request, just a tiny bit, is that alright?"
She suddenly pulled her hands away, cupped Dou Tang's head in her hands, and buried her face in his hair. The rain and his faint body scent rushed into her nostrils.
"I want to hear you say you care about me, instead of... instead of this silent care. I'm so afraid that one day you'll bravely leave and then never come back."
"I want to be strong."
Dou Tang lowered his head and remained silent for a long time.
He suddenly recalled what had happened before, and he began to see Huaiyin's current behavior as a "cry for help".
Since her birth into this world, Huaiyin has lacked a normal life. She can't even imagine living without Doutang, but at the same time, because of her young age, she has more demands on Doutang.
She wanted to hear his sweet words, to hear his intimate whispers after he suppressed his reason and composure and revealed his true feelings. This was normal, perfectly normal for a girl of this age. It was just that their relationship was too twisted because she suppressed her feelings—she was too sensible.
Should I respond to her?
Chapter 131 The boy, with an awkward response, then started speeding.
Perhaps using the metaphor of chips to describe feelings is not quite appropriate.
But that's exactly what many people do.
In our interactions with others, we often wonder: What is it about me that makes them like me? What qualities do I possess that attract them to be my friend?
This is what people with extreme low self-esteem think most often, and it's also a thought that many people have.
What do I have that would allow him/her to stay with me forever?
Is it my personal charm, my social status, or something else?
Huaiyin was also such a person; she was insecure and even somewhat withdrawn, wanting to lock herself in a room, wishing she could be with someone forever.
They are cut off from the outside world, but they are also afraid of disappearing, so they seek a sense of existence and a connection with the real world online.
Her most important connection with the outside world is Dou Tang.
Despite the already distorted relationship between the two, Huaiyin's inferiority complex twisted this bond countless times, making it extremely taut and fragile, ready to snap at any moment.
She is so endearing.
But it is also dangerous, putting oneself in danger.
Now, the danger, which had been brewing all night, finally exploded, igniting the girl's inner desires.
But for such an insecure person, even her outbursts and desires seemed so powerless and lacked confidence. She didn't even know what she had that could make Dou Tang obey her, and she didn't know what to use as leverage when making demands of Dou Tang. In the end, she could only resort to excuses like "even if it's just an unreasonable request from a young girl."
She didn't even dare to hope for more.
How could Dou Tang not respond to such a girl, how could he not cherish her?
Perhaps the events of the past had made Dou Tang's emotions more active and direct. He broke free from Huai Yin's arm without hesitation, straightened up, and stared at her.
Huaiyin was taken aback by his sudden action. She was even afraid that this was a sign that Dou Tang was going to reject her, so she quickly said, "If you don't want to, that's fine too..."
But the next second, Dou Tang pulled her into his arms.
Contrary to what Huaiyin had expected, Dou Tang did not directly tell her his sincere feelings. Instead, he said, "You're soaking wet. What if you catch a cold?"
"I haven't slept all night, what should I do if I have no energy?"
"What will you do if you're scared when I'm not around?"
"When I'm furious, when I transform into a jelly bean, I always think about you. Huaiyin, for me, facing my feelings for you means bringing those thoughts to the forefront, letting them influence me endlessly, and telling myself again and again... that I truly consider you family."
"I'm not good with sweet words. I'm really clumsy when it comes to intimate relationships. I don't know how to say things to make you happy, and I don't understand how to make you feel and recognize the value I have for you behind all my actions..."
"Perhaps it's like what someone once described: I'm a deadbeat straight man, clumsy and unlikable, straightforward but clueless... clueless about romance, but I can learn. If you want, I can learn to say those things instead of..."
"Instead of what it is now, where I consider myself a fake brother to you, and I'm unwilling to admit that I see you as my sister in my heart. I don't even know if I see you as a replacement for my former sister..."
"But I have to admit, my heart ached when you said those words."
"I'm confused, I admit it."
Dou Tang held her, speaking in a trembling yet firm tone. This clumsy person seemed to have shaken off a part of the obstacles of the ancient soul within her, allowing her to release some of her human emotions.
Huaiyin slowly closed her eyes, hot tears streaming down her face. She suppressed her urge to wail and returned the hug, panting as she said, "I'm so confused too... I, I'm not saying you don't care about me, I just... I just feel it's not enough, I feel the emotions you give me aren't impactful enough, not intense enough."
The fake siblings embraced, seemingly only then feeling a semblance of familiarity, a pathetic familiarity that came a year too late.
The high wall that had been built was finally broken down, but the two of them suddenly discovered that behind that wall lay a shared sense of confusion.
How can Dou Tang prove that his feelings for Huai Yin are not just about using her as a substitute? And how can Huai Yin realize what kind of expectations she has for Dou Tang? This leaves them feeling helpless.
But at least this helplessness is no longer something I have to swallow alone like before.
I don't know if this twisted emotion can still be considered ordinary family affection.
Lu Zizhen, hiding in the corridor, was gritting her teeth helplessly, squatting on the ground listening to the two powerless people sobbing, her eyes reddening.
"Are these two fucking crazy?!"
"Exchanging familial sentiments sounds like his mother confessing her love to him? Can you even call yourselves siblings?"
But amidst her complaints, she also clearly realized something—something Dou Tang had kept from her for so long.
It seems that Tou-tang is not actually Kai-yin's original brother... In other words, he is not Kiryu Tou-tang.
When he contacted the man who had introduced himself as Mr. Ren at the restaurant, the whole thing became a bit suspicious.
The two people inside calmed down, and Dou Tang whispered in Huai Yin's ear, "Hurry up and change your clothes, and take a hot shower, okay? I'm afraid you'll catch a cold."
If it were the old Dou Tang, he probably wouldn't have spoken like that. He would have only spoken from other people's perspectives, such as "it would be bad if she caught a cold," instead of saying that he was afraid she would catch a cold.
These words made Huaiyin blush. She sniffed and nodded, then rubbed against Doutang's neck and made a sweet, nasal "Mmm".
After replying, she left Dou Tang's embrace, quickly grabbed her bag where she kept her clothes, and dashed into the bathroom.
Dou Tang wiped his eyes, trying his best not to look so disheveled, then stood up and left the room.
Lu Zizhen was no longer visible in the corridor. He walked downstairs, only to see Lu Zizhen standing there.
In the entryway, she stood with her hands behind her back, gazing listlessly at the sky, which made Dou Tang think that she hadn't moved and had been standing in the entryway the whole time.
Ms. Xingzi was saying something in the hall of the house, but Dou Tang didn't pay attention.
Lu Zizhen turned around with a meaningful smile on her face and stared at Dou Tang, saying, "Your eyes are red."
“It’s onions. I added onions.”
Lu Zizhen chuckled: "Hey, that's such an old joke, I'm afraid no one will pick up on it anymore!"
"It's good that you understand it." Dou Tang smiled as well.
Lu Zizhen's smile faded slightly as she asked, "What's wrong? Have you comforted your sister?"
"...Perhaps she was trying to comfort me?"
Lu Zizhen stepped forward, first glancing at the main hall of the house with a guilty look, and after finding that no one was paying attention to them, she reached out and tapped Dou Tang's chest.
"Really? I was just thinking that if you've absorbed some of the negative energy from your sister, I could... comfort you properly."
Dou Tang looked down at the fingers on his chest and sneered, "Is that so? Then if I really respond, don't try to hide."
After saying that, he reached out to grab Lu Zizhen's hand, but the cunning woman quickly took a step back.
"Please, for a girl like me who is versatile, both handsome and beautiful, my first experience is very precious."
Dou Tang, feeling much relieved, chimed in, "It's alright, you can practice on your own for a while. I don't have any membrane complex; it's just a layer of flesh."
Seemingly surprised that Dou Tang would make such a lewd remark, Lu Zizhen's face showed astonishment and flush, and she pursed her lips and snorted.
"No, that's not what I meant... If I'm going to give it to you, I'll definitely give you the best, right?"
"And listen to what you're saying, it's such a chauvinistic man... I'll get feminists to take you down right now!"
Dou Tang looked at the fox-like woman in front of him and shook his head helplessly.
Chapter 132 He Comes from Hell
"Excuse my bluntness, but you don't need to have that 'give me the best' mentality at all. You and I... in the end, we're just..."
Before Dou Tang could finish speaking, Lu Zizhen reached out and covered his lips with hers, her expression rather unpleasant.
"What an idiot... Has no one ever told you not to spoil a girl's fun?"
"……Feel sorry."
"Never mind, never mind." She pinched Dou Tang's lips with dissatisfaction, her brows furrowed but her expression still gentle: "I'm used to it. You're so passive in relationships, even afraid to develop intimate relationships with others... I don't know what you're afraid of."
Dou Tang didn't answer, after all, Huai Yin had expressed something similar earlier—he was too passive and timid when it came to relationships.
Lu Zizhen, on the other hand, seemed to be the complete opposite of him. This woman seemed to have no concept of good or evil, and at the same time faced her own feelings with unparalleled clarity. Her emotions were so intense and had such a strong presence, completely different from Dou Tang's.
Lu Zizhen looked into his eyes for a long while before giving a self-deprecating laugh. As she stepped back, she shrugged and said, "Alright, your eyes are full of fatigue. I'm tired too. I want to go back to the hotel to rest."
"I'll be attending the temple fair in a couple of days too." She casually beckoned with her finger. "So you know what I mean, right? How about a date that has nothing to do with evil spirits?"
"As for Huaiyin, please, you should give her some social space, otherwise she will continue to be withdrawn and find no other meaning in life except to depend on you, which is not good for her."
Dou Tang didn't hesitate and immediately said, "Just the two of us? And now that Huaiyin just had a tantrum? That's not appropriate."
"Tch, siscon." Lu Zizhen clicked her tongue, turned around unhappily, and walked out the door, casually waving her hand. Her voice came from outside: "Then the three of us will go together! I don't mind!"
"Don't use that weird tone to say things that could be misunderstood!"
After seeing Lu Zizhen off, Dou Tang told Teacher Xingzi that a self-study class was originally scheduled for today, but it was interrupted due to this incident. Class 2-B planned to stay at a residential house temporarily and decide on their next move after receiving notification from the police.
In other words, Dou Tang can go back to his room to rest. Although the window is broken, the room is still habitable as long as the broken glass is cleaned up.
At least, it can relieve his long-lost fatigue.
His body was still groaning, telling him that the situation was not optimistic. The changes that had occurred within his body had completely reversed something. This exhaustion even made it difficult for him to muster the interest to check the crown and the evil spirit he had obtained.
Back in his room, without even taking off his clothes, he cleaned up the broken glass on the floor, then crawled into bed and closed his eyes.
In a daze, a wet figure approached him.
Looking at the unusual exhaustion on his face, Huaiyin sighed helplessly. She had also stayed up all night, but she was in better condition than Doutang, which was enough to show how bad Doutang's condition was.
"Brother... at least take your clothes off before you sleep." She poked Dou Tang's cheek.
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