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The exhaustion of life left her no time to even regret her actions.
She didn't want her daughter to end up like her.
But Kyoko Sato didn't dare to look up.
With her head bowed, she only saw her mother's weathered hands trembling slightly at that moment.
Do you want... happiness?
tick-
tick-
Huh—what's that sound?
Why...did I cry too?
Mother, do you know?
It seems your daughter is in love today.
I met a very handsome and very nice guy.
Even though he already has a girlfriend.
But your daughter still couldn't help but fall for him.
Some even had some terrifying thoughts...
However, this seems to be just wishful thinking on one side.
One-sided longing doesn't even seem like unrequited love, does it?
Not reconciled.
I felt so unwilling to accept it that I wanted to cry.
But I think I... understand something.
and so.
I will be happy.
Please don't worry, Mom.
……
Chapter 230 Anxiety and Hesitation
"I'll take this bag."
The uncompromising statement was delivered in an extremely flat tone.
Without any hindrance, Su Qing readily handed one of the bags of ingredients to Mahiru.
The moment after the ingredients were handed over, he naturally took Mahiru's other hand, saying, "The wind on the way back seems even stronger than when we came."
Even with the extra weight of the bag of ingredients, Su Qing was still worried that with Mahiru's weight, she might actually be blown away if she wasn't careful.
Therefore, you must hold their hand.
"Hmm...it's a typhoon after all." Mahiru remarked meaningfully, then asked casually, "That shop assistant...she looks familiar."
"She was the one in the last lottery, remember?"
“Oh, it’s her.” Mahiru nodded. “The 100,000 yen voucher, of course I remember.”
Subsequently.
The conversation fell silent.
On the way back, I faced the wind.
Su Qing felt that the grip on her hand seemed to be even tighter than when she came.
"Would you like to hear what I had to say to the shop assistant?" Su Qing suddenly broke the silence and asked.
"Eh...? That was your conversation with her, you don't need to tell me..."
Mahiru shook her head.
She admitted that she only hurriedly put down the condiments she had already selected and ran back after seeing Su Qing talking to the shop assistant.
But that doesn't mean she'll relentlessly question Su Qing about his chat logs with other women.
Su Qing has her own freedom.
Even if one day in the future, things turn out as she wishes.
The two really got together.
is also like this.
Mahiru also admitted that she was not a very generous person.
Otherwise, she wouldn't have been in such a hurry to take Su Qing out of the store, nor would she have done anything that resembled a declaration of ownership.
Su Qing neither dodged nor refused.
After they came out of the supermarket, the other person took her hand.
Therefore, Mahiru did not think that Su Qing had done anything wrong at all.
On the contrary, he did very well.
Mahiru was simply somewhat dissatisfied with herself.
Why wasn't Su Qing favored?
[Even though he knows he's so charming to other girls...like that time at the mall]
Hurry up and confess your feelings...
Mahiru finally had this thought in her mind.
An idea that I've had for a long time.
However, Mahiru remained hesitant, not entirely certain of the other party's intentions.
Afraid of being rejected.
Afraid of losing everything.
They had finally managed to agree to eat together, go to school together, and prepare ingredients together.
There are still many hairstyles that haven't been shown to Su Qing, and many dishes that haven't been made for him to taste.
If it fails.
Will everything just vanish into nothingness?
Is she going to go back to living alone like before?
I eat alone, go to school alone, and am at school alone.
This is actually nothing.
She was used to it.
But habit itself is a form of numbness and fear.
The restless body had long since become numb to being alone.
A wandering soul fears change.
No one can truly understand Mahiru's constant hesitation and struggle.
[If we don't make changes, is maintaining the status quo the best option?]
Mahiru occasionally has such thoughts, thoughts that she herself loathes.
That won't work.
[Happiness that has been hard to come by must be seized by one's own hands...]
[If we don't change, won't we end up with nothing again, just like before?]
Mahiru pursed her lips tightly.
Suddenly.
She felt something gently stroking the back of her hand, and looking down her arm, she saw it was Su Qing's thumb.
"I want to tell you. Is that alright?" Su Qing smiled faintly.
Although it was a sentence structured as a suggestion, combined with Su Qing's expression and tone, it gave the same feeling that it was impossible to refuse.
"it is good."
While nodding slightly, he quietly moved a little closer to Su Qing.
It's like wanting to hear what the other person is saying more clearly.
"The shop assistant asked me, 'What is love?'"
Without mentioning the time she was followed by the other party, Su Qing only planned to tell Mahiru the most important part.
Why would you ask such a question?
Mahiru frowned in confusion.
Why would someone bring up such a strange topic with a stranger?
Could it be that those short video bloggers are maliciously asking questions to passersby in order to gain traffic?
"I heard that her family arranged for her to go on blind dates, but things didn't go very well," Su Qing explained.
"I see. So she... ran away from her arranged marriage?"
Mahiru boldly speculated.
As a woman myself, if she were to choose to marry someone she didn't like, she would probably do something similar.
"Run away from your marriage? How did you come up with that idea?"
Su Qing chuckled twice, and the words she had prepared remained unspoken.
"You didn't run away from your family, did you?"
Mahiru nodded blankly, then looked at Su Qing with curious eyes.
"Of course not. It's just that I didn't like any of the ordinary ones. And it seems that I had a little conflict with my family because of this." Su Qing shook her head and said.
[Family members...?]
So, what is the connection between this and "What is love?"
Despite all that, Mahiru still didn't quite understand the clerk's line of thinking.
Do you think marriage and love are two different things, or the same thing?
There is no direct explanation.
Using questions to answer is a common logic used by Su Qing.
"For some people... perhaps it's something."
[At least for them... it must be two different things.]
As Mahiru answered, a dark glint flashed across her eyes.
At this point, she roughly understood why the shop assistant had suddenly asked Su Qing such a question.
"So... what do you think?"
Mahiru also wanted to know Su Qing's thoughts.
"Marriage can include love, but love cannot include marriage. For some people, they can indeed be one and the same, so my thoughts are actually quite similar to yours."
After taking in the subtle changes in Mahiru's "emotions," Su Qing said.
“We really are in sync.” After smiling slightly at Su Qing, Mahiru returned to her initial question, “I’d like to know how you answered her question.”
What Mahiru said was, "I want to know."
I did not answer.
Su Qing's idea surprised Mahiru somewhat.