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But when the time came to use my skills, I suddenly remembered them.
He gave a self-deprecating laugh, but the laugh seemed so aggrieved.
"It's not that I'm complacent, I think I'm pretty cute."
But now I think, "I wish I weren't so good-looking."
"Can't you refuse?"
"I wanted to refuse, but that's the custom here, and I don't have the right to refuse."
Women are the victims here, hahaha, how ridiculous.
"Do you really want to end your life like this?"
There was no hint of a smile in his words, and Kanzaki Teru was also somewhat conflicted.
He didn't know what to do. Even if he wanted to take her away, how was that any different from what the village chief did?
They are all trying to change other people's lives based on their own wishes. Besides, even if they take her away, what will happen after that?
In a foreign land, Kanzaki Teru has even lost his own memories.
Is he really going to leave here alive? The answer is obvious.
"Can you save me?"
Faced with this question, Kanzaki Teru was unable to answer.
"Yes, that's right, it's too much of a burden for you."
But there's nothing wrong with that. Tomorrow I can marry a complete stranger and marry into a wealthy family.
Although I heard he's a lolicon, my figure just happens to be his type.
That way, at least we won't have to worry about food and clothing for tomorrow. I know you've probably already noticed.
Actually, my family is very poor; even the meal we're having tonight was borrowed.
Her tone seemed to contain longing, but more than that, it conveyed despair about reality.
These words, spoken in a self-deprecating tone, left Kanzaki Teru speechless.
"Aren't you going to say anything?"
Seeing that Kanzaki Teru remained silent, Maria also quietly watched him.
Okay, I understand.
(Norde's)
I'm sorry to make you listen to such boring things.
But that's perfect, you probably don't want to be taken care of by a witch either.
Maybe your bad luck is just because you ran into me.
【That's not how it is】 Although Kanzaki Teru wanted to say this, for some reason it felt like something was stuck in his throat.
They can't say a word, or perhaps they don't want to say a word.
"I'll send you out tomorrow. Although your injuries haven't fully healed, at least you can move around now."
I'd like to give you some money, but unfortunately I'm penniless too. However, these days will end tomorrow.
Chapter 469: Confronting Despair
His tone was deliberately light, but it sounded so sorrowful.
This girl was constantly confronting despair, being defeated by it time and time again, and struggling to get up from the ground each time.
However, in the end, they still could not escape the shackles of fate.
Can a fate called "despair" really be allowed?
"I found this where you collapsed. Didn't you ask me how I knew your name?"
She reached into her pocket again and pulled out a notebook with many teeth marks on it.
It looks like it was attacked by wolves.
"It was found on your torn clothes; it was inside a lining of a garment."
It took me ages to open it, but what I found inside surprised me even more.
Maria handed the notebook to Kanzaki Hikaru, but just as he reached out to take it, she pulled her hand back.
910 "After reading the above, I think you should be able to recall everything, but..."
The pent-up emotions seemed to have reached their limit, and Maria's voice choked up again.
"I don't want you to open it and look at it; I want you to always be who you are now."
I'm sorry, it was just my own stubbornness.
Maria placed the notebook on the table, completely unable to control her emotions.
She ran out of the room sobbing, leaving Kanzaki Teru alone, staring at the notebook on the table, unsure of what to do.
"Don't you want me to open it and see...?"
Recalling Maria's expression, Kanzaki Teru knew exactly what those words meant.
I might still try to save her now, but what if I'm no longer the person I am now?
No one knows the answer to this question. Ultimately, is life really just a facade?
If you can live a perfectly easy life, is it really necessary to find your past self again?
That night, Kanzaki Teru reached out countless times to open the notebook.
But every time he touched that notebook, it was as if some emotion welled up inside him.
He withdrew his hand again, and before he knew it, Kanzaki Teru had fallen asleep.
"That's none of my business."
"Are you really at ease?"
Before Kanzaki Teru stood a person confronting him; upon closer inspection, that person was himself.
"Then why do you feel conflicted?"
"It's just because she's my benefactor. I just wanted to help her in any way I could."
"Then why don't you go help her?"
"You're me too, you should know that! This is way beyond just helping out!"
"That's right, this is a rescue, saving a girl from despair. Isn't this the kind of hero-saves-the-damsel-in-distress scenario you wanted?"
"How can you make it sound so simple! If I actually did something like that (cdfb), then it would be irreversible!"
Besides, if I actually did that, how would I be any different from those other people!
"Of course! I'm just a fifteen or sixteen-year-old!"
Even if I save her now, what should I do after that?
No memory, no strength, no money, nothing at all!
"Is that your reason?"
The other self was inexplicably calm, as if Kanzaki Hikaru's emotions had not been conveyed to the other side at all.
"Yes! Is it wrong? I can be a selfish person, is that not allowed!"
"No, you are not that kind of person."
"What do you know?! That's who I am! Selfish! Cowardly! Utterly worthless!"
“I know you don’t think that way; you want to save her.”
"I had no intention of saving her; I was just a coward trying to save myself!"
"Then why are you struggling with this? I know, because I am you."
Don't overthink it; just ask yourself what your true feelings are.
"Then what do you suggest we do?"
"You should know this, because you and I are one person."
Opening his eyes, Kanzaki Teru couldn't tell what time it was.
But it doesn't seem that late, since the sunlight hasn't even shone in yet.
"Since I can't save her..."
Kanzaki Hikaru reached for the notebook, but even though it was less than thirty centimeters away, it felt so far away at that moment.
What if you regain your memories but still don't want to save her? What if you become an even more cold-blooded person after regaining your memories?
What if the memory doesn't return?
As he considered all sorts of possibilities, each one slowed Kanzaki Teru's hand as he reached for the notebook.
But in the end, her hand still landed on the laptop.
At this moment, Kanzaki Teru didn't remember who he was, but a thought pattern judgment question unconsciously surfaced in his mind.
Chapter 470: Return
If a person suddenly dies one day, but at the same time...
Suddenly, a clone of him appeared, identical in every way.
This clone is unaware that it is a clone, nor is it aware that its original self has died.
The clone continues to do exactly the same things as the original, so is this person considered dead?
Is it better for this clone to be unaware that it is a clone and that its original is dead?
Although he doesn't know what choices he would have made before losing his memory, he now wants to choose to understand everything.
I held the notebook in front of me, and my fingers unconsciously turned to the first page.
However, Kanzaki Teru subconsciously closed his eyes, a contradictory behavior that even Kanzaki Teru himself did not know why.